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This is the final countdown

July 5, 2026

This is the final countdown,
the end,
a time spent in such a state that I cannot placate,
the feelings of loss,
the feelings of suffering,
as if being crucified upon a cross,
and here I am,
wondering why we have come to this,
wondering why we are saying goodbye to each other,
now, I do not know,
and of this reason I am at loss,
I am at a loss, and I am cross and upset,
and I am disconnected from you,
but I do not know why the reason,
why the reason is,
I truly do not do,
and here I am,
filled with such sighs,
wondering why we have to part,
because in my heart,
in my heart I still truly love you,
I still truly love you,
but what a to do,
you want to go one way,
and well,
I still want to go with you,
but you say,
you say, it is over,
over between me and you,
and you will not give me a reason,
and you,
you crucify me,
you crucify me you do.
you have crucified me with your decision,
and I do not know what to do,
oh, crucified upon a cross,
crucified,
and you,
you want to go one way,
and I,
with my broken heart,
I, I despite your wishes,
how my heartaches,
and how I still want to go with you,
oh, you crucify me you do!